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SaikoJ_Mitsurugi
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Name: DJ Kazuhiro
Metro: Austin
Gender: Male
Interests: Life, Videogame, Electronics, Cosplay, Anime, Martial Arts, Breakdancing, Flimmaking, Photography and You!!!! (Im Serious If u reading this drop me a line lets talk.)
Expertise: Ninjitsu, (All Flipz, Wall Running, Stealth, etc...)Making girls smile. Being Me.
Occupation: Music Producer
Industry: Music
Message: message meEmail: email me
Website: visit my website
AIM:  SaikoUchiha
MSN: DjSaiko1587@hotmail.com
Yahoo:  MugenKakashi
Member Since:
4/11/2006
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I love you,
I Say these words as if I know their every meaning
I Care,
I Say these words as if I do
I look for meaning in them,
I take these words and use them as if they are my own
I believe in the power of these words
I believe in the words "I love you"
Because I believe in love and most of all,
I Believe in you.
I say these words
I love you,
Because I know I do,
Hold my hands thight with yours look me in the eyes
Now do you?
Do feel the power of these words race down your body in a rage of emotion and grace?
Does every image that pass through you mind at the very moment you say these words reflect us?
It should.
I say these words
I care,
Because I know I do
Wrap your arms around me listen to my heart beat
Now do you?
Can you feel the throbing of my heart pounding in you eardrum like the screams of people on a rollercaster that just taken a long
vertical plunge?
Can you sence the love inside me wanting to be with you at this very moment and always?
You should.
Does any of this mean anything to you? Can you be everything I want you to be?
Can I be everything you want me to be? Will we touch each other in ways we never thought of?
Will we do things together we said we wouldn't do?
Can we just let go of all our worries and troubles? Will we break free and do any and everything we wanna do?
Guess what baby. . . .
We Should.
I Say these words
I Love you and I Care,
Because I do,
Now do You?
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| Agian I fell off the face of the earth with this site. cause i lost my net access at home. so yeah sorry. Guess what i Fell in love agian. . Guess what it was to fast. . . Guess what Im single agian. . . Ha. What do women really want. . .? Is there any girls out there that care about a person because of there personality. .? | | |
| So if you haven't noticed I been having some problems with the Opposite sex.
Read previous Blog. . .
Now Good New. A Friend I known since 2006 i talk to on and off. has come back in to my life but Headstrong and I mean HEADSTRONG.
She browsed my myspace and commented pics bulletins blogs and more!
Why be cause she has been through lots of things i have.
So we clicked on a whole new level, and not just our Love for Anime and Japan.
We have been talking Like Everyday! About Any and Everything! Laughing and just sharing stories about our past! Good times Bad Time Good relationships that ended when they didn't have to and what not.
For the past few weeks shes the only Girl i have had intelligent conversations with! And its lovely.
This girl is blowing my mind mentally In all the right ways She Really Likes me too!. . . But [bumbumbummmmm]
I dont think I'm ready . . .=(
I remember reading a Blog here on Xanga about Men and Commitment.
It said Many men do buckle down because they Wanna be Content with their status Like Career, Jobs, Finance and all that (something along them lines)
Well Im gonna say what i said there.
I'm one of them Guys!
I recently lost my Job i was making $375 a week! I got paid every Wednesday! I had money in the bank! I was about to get my Car Fix! And apply for school! but. . . .[bumbumbummmmm]
Something came up.
We lost contracts so we lost money, losing money meant losing workers but [bumbumbummmm] involuntarily...
So yeah My pay took a big cut and so did the days i worked per week. We lost more contracts and I lost more days and more Money. . .Till eventually I lost the job. . .So now im back to square one. . .Jobless, Carless, And back at my Mom place. . . .Fuck! I can honestly say I my mom would have never made me pay Rent and Bill as a teen I would not have this problem I would be out a Job maybe but No Cash. You ask what happen to my money in the bank. . .Well Mom started to fall behind on bills guess what! i had to cover that for her. Plus my mom for some reason no longer keep her frige full! So yeah having to eat out everyday major downage on cash. . .So not im shit up creek with out a paddle.
Summer is almost over and all the High Schoolers will be back in school so more Jobb will be open.
I'll just keep my head up for that but back to what this post is about.
So this girl! I like her Alot. . .Sad part is im 22 and shes 18. (Why do i only attract the Teens?)
and she lives in Houston. .I live in Austin Same state Different City. . .She Has a Job and Soon (Next Month) a Car. She independent and I love that about a girl. She would like to be with me but I told her (because I have) that i have been in a relationship where I did everything! for my lover! Finanially before and it gets old fast. I would never wanna put anyone in that sitch. I dont want her to be droping Dollars on me cause i dont have it. I wanna drop my own dollars on me. And Some on her out of kindness the heart.
I mean She is Virgo I am Capricorn (Read about it) So yeah.
God I just dont know what to do. . . I will be moving in with my Cousin Soon (Thank God) She lives with her brother. Hopefully i will get a job soon and get back on my feet. cause this sucks.
Pray for me Xanga Pray For Me Por Favor. . .
Godbless and Good Night.
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| This just happened 40mins ago.
So for the past few weeks i been talking to this girl on myspace. She amazing! We so much in common. and we are felling each other. Obviously from how much we demand being around each other.
We Hung out one day and it was fantastic!
Well on her myspace i noticed a guy in her tops in front of my pic. Im 3rd and hes 2nd. He talks to her like a Shakespeare character. I asked her what was up with that. and she answers hes just like that. And asked if he was her BF and she said No. She is single and have been for a while. My Eyes lit up like Fireworks. I was like Fuck yeah im about to get this girl because she loves my style, she thinks im very attractive, and talented we share simular talents. So time goes by and we talking and talk then all of a sudden today. . .
*cue sad piano music*
He Defualt pic changes to a pic of her and him sitting in the back seat of a car smiling for the camera with heads leaning on each other. Then I see this:
Jourdain aka Charmander XD
 Online Now!
| Jul 25 2009 10:40 PM
Babe i'm really sorry, god now i wish i did not go to that show, all i could think about is seeing you and wanting to hear your voice but my phone died  . You have no idea, all i could think about was you all night, even right now i'm think about you. Tonight i realized so much, i went to a chrstrain metal concert and it changed my life so much, and so many girls were checking me and my friend luke out, but it made me sad becase every girl there was not you, i wanted you there so badly. For one thing your simply with-out a doubt amazing and you ARE the most beautiful girl in the world, i want you to be my girl friend so bad, you have no clue  . You truely are perfect for me Valerie, the way you talk, the way you act, the way you yawn and laugh (which by the way both are simply adorable) oh and the way you blush . You are perfect. I wanna give you everything in the world, but for now all i can offer is my loving and caring heart and this vow to you:
I will never cheat, never lie, never curse towards or hurt you or make you cry, i will always be your friend and your boyfriend, i will alway respect you and never ever put you down, i will always make you feel spiecal and i will always care for you, you will never even see me look at another girl becase my eyes will be locked on to you, and most importantly i will never leave your side, no matter what you may do or say:
And also.........., i conviced my friend to drive me there tomorrow where ever i need to go he will take me, so i NEED to see you tomorrow, i dont care where or for how long, even if its at you front yard for 5 mintes or its at the malll for 5 hours, i do not care, i will do anything to see you, if your mom does not want you leave the house i will come over. i must see you,<bR |
Yeah i felt my Soul Slip out of my nose like Ikkis' Does in the Japanese Anime AirGear when he see Simca Naked but mine way like DEATH.
You know that feeling you get when Something you want so bad is within your grasp and the moment you reach for it vanishes or something sangs it away from you. Like crawing in a dessert and you think you see water and it's just more sand once you grab it. . . Yeah My heart dropped at 100mph into my gut and I litteraly almost trew up. I felt really sick. . .I wanted to cry but said to myself "nah, you'll live dude. plenty of fish. plenty of fish" So i messaged her to see if it was true they just got together today. and she sayz this:
----------------- Original Message -----------------
From: ✝AmayaxSin✝
To: ~無限 Da Stickfigyah 忍者~
Date: Jul 26, 2009 4:23 AM
Subject: RE: damn . . .
I'm sorry.
I didn't mean to hurt you. =(
But I hope we can still be really awesome friends because you were such an AWESOME friend, no joke. =/
And This:
----------------- Original Message -----------------
From: ✝AmayaxSin✝
To: ~無限 Da Stickfigyah 忍者~
Date: Jul 26, 2009 4:35 AM
Subject: RE: damn . . .
Ok. ^^
And I don't think it's going to be years. >.<
He hasn't been in a relationship longer then 3 months. =P
And I'm going to let you know, I was crushing on you a little as well really, he just got to me first. >.<
Sorry. =/
WTF. . .I could be the guy next to her in that photo if the moment she told me she was single I had told her how i felt. . . .She'd be mine right now. but I lost her to a guy that smokes pot and pills and drinks, who just claimed 10mins ago he quit because he has her. You can't go sobe in a day let alone 6 hrs hahah what a joke.
But you know what im just gonna sit back and chill. cause after reading that hes a drugy. Yeah i can just laugh at it all. He'll run back to MaryJane. so yeah. Its hurts but not as much any more.
This is what i drew for her. the guy she with only photoshops. HA! I photoshop and freehand.
Plus why even consider dating someone that Does drugs like that.
Anime Style Obviously cause we both love anime.
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| I find myself wondering if life is worth living for. . .But am I really living? Try askin yourself that.
You wake up and get out of what you believe to be the bed of your dream world and take a the first step into reality. You think Only of what you want to do for the day but not for the future.
I walk the planet with a cracked smile on my face. Proof of the breaks in time that can not be fixed. I wander the thoughts of mother nature having her thinking how will this man fuck me up more then he already have.
Shit is crazy, Yeah. Remembering childhood days that mother gaia and I spent talking to each other about where we will be decades from then. and a century from now.
I remember saying I would be a Computer wiz, i remember saying I would be a mathematician, I remember saying I would be A policeman. . . But still, where does is begin?
I now say, I will be a Stuntman saving lives on the big screen or or losing my own. . A DJ Bringing you the Beats Of my Life's Drums through the speakers in your home. . A Photographer stopping time with a push of a button. . . as I live life now i wonder if its all for nothing.
I still look in the mirror and see a child, with the same cracked smile, same old style and thoughts that run wild. The child that still wonders about the things he could have seen If his eyes wasnt filled with faulse hopes and . . .
Shards of Broken Dreams. | | |
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