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Name: DJ Kazuhiro
Metro: Austin
Gender: Male
Interests: Life, Videogame, Electronics, Cosplay, Anime, Martial Arts, Breakdancing, Flimmaking, Photography and You!!!! (Im Serious If u reading this drop me a line lets talk.)
Expertise: Ninjitsu, (All Flipz, Wall Running, Stealth, etc...)Making girls smile. Being Me.
Occupation: Music Producer
Industry: Music
Message: message meEmail: email me
Website: visit my website
AIM:  SaikoUchiha
MSN: DjSaiko1587@hotmail.com
Yahoo:  MugenKakashi
Member Since:
4/11/2006
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| Agian I fell off the face of the earth with this site. cause i lost my net access at home. so yeah sorry. Guess what i Fell in love agian. . Guess what it was to fast. . . Guess what Im single agian. . . Ha. What do women really want. . .? Is there any girls out there that care about a person because of there personality. .? | | |
| So if you haven't noticed I been having some problems with the Opposite sex.
Read previous Blog. . .
Now Good New. A Friend I known since 2006 i talk to on and off. has come back in to my life but Headstrong and I mean HEADSTRONG.
She browsed my myspace and commented pics bulletins blogs and more!
Why be cause she has been through lots of things i have.
So we clicked on a whole new level, and not just our Love for Anime and Japan.
We have been talking Like Everyday! About Any and Everything! Laughing and just sharing stories about our past! Good times Bad Time Good relationships that ended when they didn't have to and what not.
For the past few weeks shes the only Girl i have had intelligent conversations with! And its lovely.
This girl is blowing my mind mentally In all the right ways She Really Likes me too!. . . But [bumbumbummmmm]
I dont think I'm ready . . .=(
I remember reading a Blog here on Xanga about Men and Commitment.
It said Many men do buckle down because they Wanna be Content with their status Like Career, Jobs, Finance and all that (something along them lines)
Well Im gonna say what i said there.
I'm one of them Guys!
I recently lost my Job i was making $375 a week! I got paid every Wednesday! I had money in the bank! I was about to get my Car Fix! And apply for school! but. . . .[bumbumbummmmm]
Something came up.
We lost contracts so we lost money, losing money meant losing workers but [bumbumbummmm] involuntarily...
So yeah My pay took a big cut and so did the days i worked per week. We lost more contracts and I lost more days and more Money. . .Till eventually I lost the job. . .So now im back to square one. . .Jobless, Carless, And back at my Mom place. . . .Fuck! I can honestly say I my mom would have never made me pay Rent and Bill as a teen I would not have this problem I would be out a Job maybe but No Cash. You ask what happen to my money in the bank. . .Well Mom started to fall behind on bills guess what! i had to cover that for her. Plus my mom for some reason no longer keep her frige full! So yeah having to eat out everyday major downage on cash. . .So not im shit up creek with out a paddle.
Summer is almost over and all the High Schoolers will be back in school so more Jobb will be open.
I'll just keep my head up for that but back to what this post is about.
So this girl! I like her Alot. . .Sad part is im 22 and shes 18. (Why do i only attract the Teens?)
and she lives in Houston. .I live in Austin Same state Different City. . .She Has a Job and Soon (Next Month) a Car. She independent and I love that about a girl. She would like to be with me but I told her (because I have) that i have been in a relationship where I did everything! for my lover! Finanially before and it gets old fast. I would never wanna put anyone in that sitch. I dont want her to be droping Dollars on me cause i dont have it. I wanna drop my own dollars on me. And Some on her out of kindness the heart.
I mean She is Virgo I am Capricorn (Read about it) So yeah.
God I just dont know what to do. . . I will be moving in with my Cousin Soon (Thank God) She lives with her brother. Hopefully i will get a job soon and get back on my feet. cause this sucks.
Pray for me Xanga Pray For Me Por Favor. . .
Godbless and Good Night.
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| This just happened 40mins ago.
So for the past few weeks i been talking to this girl on myspace. She amazing! We so much in common. and we are felling each other. Obviously from how much we demand being around each other.
We Hung out one day and it was fantastic!
Well on her myspace i noticed a guy in her tops in front of my pic. Im 3rd and hes 2nd. He talks to her like a Shakespeare character. I asked her what was up with that. and she answers hes just like that. And asked if he was her BF and she said No. She is single and have been for a while. My Eyes lit up like Fireworks. I was like Fuck yeah im about to get this girl because she loves my style, she thinks im very attractive, and talented we share simular talents. So time goes by and we talking and talk then all of a sudden today. . .
*cue sad piano music*
He Defualt pic changes to a pic of her and him sitting in the back seat of a car smiling for the camera with heads leaning on each other. Then I see this:
Jourdain aka Charmander XD
 Online Now!
| Jul 25 2009 10:40 PM
Babe i'm really sorry, god now i wish i did not go to that show, all i could think about is seeing you and wanting to hear your voice but my phone died  . You have no idea, all i could think about was you all night, even right now i'm think about you. Tonight i realized so much, i went to a chrstrain metal concert and it changed my life so much, and so many girls were checking me and my friend luke out, but it made me sad becase every girl there was not you, i wanted you there so badly. For one thing your simply with-out a doubt amazing and you ARE the most beautiful girl in the world, i want you to be my girl friend so bad, you have no clue  . You truely are perfect for me Valerie, the way you talk, the way you act, the way you yawn and laugh (which by the way both are simply adorable) oh and the way you blush . You are perfect. I wanna give you everything in the world, but for now all i can offer is my loving and caring heart and this vow to you:
I will never cheat, never lie, never curse towards or hurt you or make you cry, i will always be your friend and your boyfriend, i will alway respect you and never ever put you down, i will always make you feel spiecal and i will always care for you, you will never even see me look at another girl becase my eyes will be locked on to you, and most importantly i will never leave your side, no matter what you may do or say:
And also.........., i conviced my friend to drive me there tomorrow where ever i need to go he will take me, so i NEED to see you tomorrow, i dont care where or for how long, even if its at you front yard for 5 mintes or its at the malll for 5 hours, i do not care, i will do anything to see you, if your mom does not want you leave the house i will come over. i must see you,<bR |
Yeah i felt my Soul Slip out of my nose like Ikkis' Does in the Japanese Anime AirGear when he see Simca Naked but mine way like DEATH.
You know that feeling you get when Something you want so bad is within your grasp and the moment you reach for it vanishes or something sangs it away from you. Like crawing in a dessert and you think you see water and it's just more sand once you grab it. . . Yeah My heart dropped at 100mph into my gut and I litteraly almost trew up. I felt really sick. . .I wanted to cry but said to myself "nah, you'll live dude. plenty of fish. plenty of fish" So i messaged her to see if it was true they just got together today. and she sayz this:
----------------- Original Message -----------------
From: ✝AmayaxSin✝
To: ~無限 Da Stickfigyah 忍者~
Date: Jul 26, 2009 4:23 AM
Subject: RE: damn . . .
I'm sorry.
I didn't mean to hurt you. =(
But I hope we can still be really awesome friends because you were such an AWESOME friend, no joke. =/
And This:
----------------- Original Message -----------------
From: ✝AmayaxSin✝
To: ~無限 Da Stickfigyah 忍者~
Date: Jul 26, 2009 4:35 AM
Subject: RE: damn . . .
Ok. ^^
And I don't think it's going to be years. >.<
He hasn't been in a relationship longer then 3 months. =P
And I'm going to let you know, I was crushing on you a little as well really, he just got to me first. >.<
Sorry. =/
WTF. . .I could be the guy next to her in that photo if the moment she told me she was single I had told her how i felt. . . .She'd be mine right now. but I lost her to a guy that smokes pot and pills and drinks, who just claimed 10mins ago he quit because he has her. You can't go sobe in a day let alone 6 hrs hahah what a joke.
But you know what im just gonna sit back and chill. cause after reading that hes a drugy. Yeah i can just laugh at it all. He'll run back to MaryJane. so yeah. Its hurts but not as much any more.
This is what i drew for her. the guy she with only photoshops. HA! I photoshop and freehand.
Plus why even consider dating someone that Does drugs like that.
Anime Style Obviously cause we both love anime.
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| I find myself wondering if life is worth living for. . .But am I really living? Try askin yourself that.
You wake up and get out of what you believe to be the bed of your dream world and take a the first step into reality. You think Only of what you want to do for the day but not for the future.
I walk the planet with a cracked smile on my face. Proof of the breaks in time that can not be fixed. I wander the thoughts of mother nature having her thinking how will this man fuck me up more then he already have.
Shit is crazy, Yeah. Remembering childhood days that mother gaia and I spent talking to each other about where we will be decades from then. and a century from now.
I remember saying I would be a Computer wiz, i remember saying I would be a mathematician, I remember saying I would be A policeman. . . But still, where does is begin?
I now say, I will be a Stuntman saving lives on the big screen or or losing my own. . A DJ Bringing you the Beats Of my Life's Drums through the speakers in your home. . A Photographer stopping time with a push of a button. . . as I live life now i wonder if its all for nothing.
I still look in the mirror and see a child, with the same cracked smile, same old style and thoughts that run wild. The child that still wonders about the things he could have seen If his eyes wasnt filled with faulse hopes and . . .
Shards of Broken Dreams. | | |
| Okay just a few Hours ago I was on the Tagged.com I got a comment from a girl i was talking to. Telling her about what my goals was in Life here is a briefing of the convo.
~_Mr.Dj.Kazuhiro"aka"Da Gentleman_~
"Don't look back cause you might trip over your future". I like that. How you doing?
yo momma hoe (:
im doin good and thanks...some dude copied me with ma headline lol ...it was weird haha how are you? ~_Mr.Dj.Kazuhiro"aka"Da Gentleman_~
Im okay. just trying to make it in life. reach my goals. make some new friends to hang out with when im not busy. and stuck at home. yo momma hoe (: and what are your goals? ~_Mr.Dj.Kazuhiro"aka"Da Gentleman_~
music career. film career. leaving the USA forever and stay in Japan. Find a Wife get married befor age 30 and have 2 kids live die all in japan LOL yo momma hoe (: lol so i guess you like JAPAN lmfao well hope everything works out as planned... (NOTE: I think she thinks its uncultured for me to be black and LOVE japan hince she put "LMFAO" after guessing i love japan. I really dont find that funny at all. do you?) ~_Mr.Dj.Kazuhiro"aka"Da Gentleman_~ Yep. We all have a place we wanna go because 1. Its beautiful and 2. They wanna get out of the USA for once if they havent been. and Japan is my destination of choice only thing is i dont wanna come back to America. yo momma hoe (: why do you hate america so much??.. (*INSERT CAR TIRE SCRECH SOUND AND CRASH SOUND HERE*) why do you I hate america so much?? When in that convo did i ever say I hate America!! I was fucken born here January 15th 19mutha fucken 87 year of the fucken rabbit. Whats todays date. 7/21/09 meaning i been here over 22 years. I haven't been out side the USA not once. In the 8 grade i said to myself after falling in love with Japanese anime Tenchi Muyo on Toonami (CartoonNetwork) "Do they teach Japanese in high school?" I put that on my class choice and was happy as hell to find my High School io would be attending has a Japanese Language class. so i signed up and for 4 years studied Japanese culture and language. The funny thing is the teacher was a Male White New Yorker that lived in Japan for 14 years working for Fuji Film came back to America to share his knowledge with kids! Kids with dreams of someday venturing over there. Me being one of them. I fell in love with everything i learned about Japan in school so that people is why I wanna go so damn bad and leave America behind me. I can change the fact that its my Birth Home. Again i been here over 22 years so year. I simply just wanna leave. Never said i hated it. ima go a bit more into dept why i wanna go. In the 9th grade I got in a Long Distant Relationship with a girl from/in Hong Kong (if you jump back to 2005 - 2006 on my Xanga Calender you will find that this is where it started. We was one of the most adored couples on Xanga. anyway.... She been to japan few times and she would always tell me how great it was. cause she knew i had a big thing for the place. She would send me things in the mail she bough me from Japan. But yeah enough of that. . . Also in High School I got more and more in J-Rock and J-POP and ANIME so then i also started getting into the GIRLS and then next came the customs of "Ittedaki masu (clap clap)" before every meal and Removin my shoes before entering the house. And Sayin "Mushi Mushi" when answering my cell phone and sometime house phone. Then My Room Change to everything Japanese and Lastly my fashion. became more and more like the Characters in the animes Everything from Shoes to Hair. And people that pissed me off got cursed at in Japanese. I also to Up Lots of Martial Arts and Began Walking the streets with a all back all wood 38inch Ninja Sword on my back (still do). Just in case i had to bust someones ass for crossing me wrong. Like a Yakuza member i guess but no with a knife or Club/bat. I then found myself attending Japanese Culture and Anime convention all over Texas in 2006 to now. thus building a mob of Otaku friends Soon to be know as "The Lone Star Village Ninjas" tm. We raid anime cons as ninjas running and flipping around wow'n people. Now as I am I still hit up cons, Jam 60% Japanese Music 10% Video Game Music, 10% American Hip-Hop, 10% Music I Make, 5% Drum&Bass and 5% everything else. I Rock some Japanese fashion. Still watch Anime, My Room is still decked out with Japanese decorative things, I have a nice little Japanese Sword and Ninja Tool Collection and it just goes on and on.
So as you can see what happened is I a African American has adopted the Japanese Culture as my own. I will never be Japanese and Will always be ana American. But my dreams lay in Japan and Thats where im gonna be live and die. (or at least thats what i want) But I never said that I hated America. Does it seem like I hate America to you? Im just bored here. And wanna see more of the world before its destroied or I die.....Where would you like to go that you havent been? Where to you wanna live the rest of you life?
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